Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Seasons Change

Day 364, has transitioned me into a “New Season of tearing down and rebuilding.” My entire life that I once knew, was familiar with, I could recite in my sleep has now become a life that is unrecognizable and quite frankly uncomfortable.

It has been a season since my last post of which I am not proud; however, the seasons between July 27, 2011 and July 17, 2013 has been filled with an accumulation of days, months and consequently years of life events. These life events manifested in many forms has changed everything I thought I ever knew. I wish I could state that I remained calm and reflected everything beautiful in the days past; however that would be an untruth.

As I started looking back on this time I asked God the question we “All” ask him when our life is uprooted and thrown about, like a Kansas Tornado and unrecognizable; "Why." The series of "Why's" started running through my mind similar to a montage of Mother Nature’s devastating storms for a moment, … OK, longer than a moment. I felt angry, upset, frustrated, confused, and all the other mentally draining and ineffective emotions that circle within the mind when one feels as if he/she has failed at life, failed at being an example of a Godly person, failed at relationships, and so forth; however, in this case that person was a she … that she was me.

It took me a few days of trying to ignore what had been transpiring in my life and what was currently transpiring in my life- (the list too long to transcribe maybe another time) to wake up- literally I woke up!

Today when I woke up I found myself here, back on this journey I began in January of 2011. God showed up and had something to say to me, not that he ever left my side; moreover, that he in a sense picked me up, cleaned my wounds and began to share with me through His Word “Why’ things change(d).  

This is what he shared -

Ecclesiastes 3:1-22

New International Version (NIV)

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace

Midway through these passages I felt a tug at my spirit and a peace started to blanket my soul like a warm comforting embrace for a lifelong companion. I found myself falling into the passages with a deep sigh of relief and release. God showed me that through all the days, months years of life circumstances and transitions there  was/is/will be “A Time For Everything.”  

These last couple of years I have watched the ‘Seasons Change’ and I am still here to talk write and share what God is showing me though all of the changes.   

As I begun to read more of what he wanted me to know, it was as if he was saying … “Wait, the best has yet to come.” 

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 

Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.  

Pretty amazing wake up call to what should have been the obvious all along, yet we are human and we tend to overcomplicate almost everything.  

Therefore, as Everything changes I assuredly know that life here is temporary just as the Seasons within the days, and the best has yet to come even through our uprooting and rebuilding.





Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Day 335- Happiness in the Chaos

Day 335, I was presented with the concept of order and context.  The order and context I am referencing is the “Order” of my daily ramblings or in other words writings.  It was brought to my attention that I should organize and put in context my daily writing in order to provide a more cohesive format to my writing-

My response to this  was …  “Sure, I suppose I could put my writings in order or some context that will provide a sense of continuity to the flow of my daily ramblings, but why?

Would it be so that my writings can make a more organized statement to the individual reading it, or would it be so that my thoughts and feelings can formulate a more precise literary rendering?

The response I received was, “Well, yeah.”

I could not help but laugh and then giggle not at the person; moreover, at the thought of a deeper concept that the organization or cohesiveness of my so-called ramblings. 
Then I simply stated, “let me ask you this … are your days prearranged in a particular order to make more sense to you and others in your life?”  —“Are your feelings categorized by the day?”  —“Can you organize the events that transpire within a single day?”  –

“Wait do not answer that.”

Matthew 6:34
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

I can assure you I for one cannot.  I cannot strategically organize my feelings any more than I can rearrange the sequence of events in my life.  Yesterday will never be the same as today and I have no control of tomorrow, so why would I “Organize” my writings to reflect otherwise.

The events in my life change daily as each day falls away.  I encounter a new set of events and emotions at the onset of each new day.  This reason alone is why I leave my writings as they are and in the order in which they are written.

I cannot say I know one person who can honestly say every single day of their life is the same as yesterday.

Therefore, for now I will stay real in presenting the days as they come and hope that the person who is led to read my writings, (order or not) can see that life happens, we do not plan for it nor are we in control of it, it simply happens.  To help just one person to understand that he/she is not in control of the order in which we experience the events or emotions of our daily life; here in and of itself to me is the value.  

Moreover, no matter how diverse we are one from another we all still feel and experience emotions.  Now, maintaining happiness though the roller coaster of emotions is different for each one of us, yet obtainable if we seek it.

Matthew 7:7 (NIV, 2011).
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

For me, it is the application of biblical scripture coupled with God’s unconditional love, which enables me to feel and experience happiness.

            Psalm 16:11 (KJV, 2011).
            “You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy;
  At Your right hand are  pleasures forevermore.”

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Day 336- Draw Near

Day 336, was an interesting day as I sat at the dining-room table with my 19-year-old son.  The topic of conversation was, “How can Jesus, be God?”  Is Jesus God and if Jesus is God why when he was on the cross did he cry out to God with the following words-

Matthew 27:46 (KJV)

"And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? That is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?"

To have my son ask such a strong question left me awe-struck.  I attempted to answer his question with the knowledge that I had at the time; however, the more I tried to answer him with reason and logic the more confused I made him.  Therefore, I stopped and explained to him that I also have asked this question and with prayer, instruction, and faith the question I had initially asked became answered.

I found through examining and understanding the correlation of the Old Testament prophecies and the New Testament fulfillments of the prophecies the easier the questions became to understand.

As a Christian, we should become very familiar with what the Bible shares with us pertaining to questions such as my son asked me and pertaining to Prophecy and Fulfillment of Prophecy.  The reason behind the understanding is so we as Christians do not become a stumbling block to others who may be seeking God.

For example the question my son asked me left me initially tongue-tied and uncertain of how to answer his question.  Then God shared with me that not so long ago I had read and studied the answers to this particular question and if whenever we seek answers we shall receive them.

So, why did the answer elude me at the time I need it the most?  The answer is very simple … I had not continued to utilize the tools God had provided for me and therefore, I struggled for a moment trying to recapture what God had showed me.

We as Christians have to stay near to God so that He stays near to us, especially when people are sent to us for answers.

The Bible reads-

James 4:8 (KJV)

“Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you.  Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.”

We in accordance with God’s Word NEED to stay near to God, so we will not become double minded.  It is vitally important in the Christian daily walk, so when called upon we will have the answers asked to us pertaining to God, Jesus Christ, and Salvation.

When explaining to my son the reason for  Matthew 27:46,  when Jesus cried out to God, he was quoting a scripture in the Old Testament in order to fulfill the prophecy in Psalm 22:1-

Psalm 22:1 (KJV)

“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?  why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?”

The Bible is filled with internal consistency from Genesis through the completion of Revelation; however for one to see this one must read and study the Bible and seek an unveiling of our worldly eyes so that we can see from our spiritual eyes.

1 Corinthians 2:9-10 (NIV)

“However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”- the things God has prepared for those who love him— these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.  The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.”

Therefore, we may not know all the answers simply because we are seeking with our wrong eyes; however, if allow our Spirit to search for the answers we will not become awe-struck, or tongue-tied.  We will know what to say in the time we are to say it without becoming a stumbling block for another or causing doubt to take hold of a new believer.

Matthew 16:23 (NIV)

“Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan!  You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

Lord, I do not want to be cast aside due to human concerns, I want to have the mind and concerns of God; unveil my eyes Father so that I may walk along side of you and not be cast behind.